Clutching my stomach and bent over double, I crouched in the hall at the plastic surgeon's office trying not to get sick or pass out. All I could hear was my
just-turned 7 year old babygirl screaming in excruciating pain and my Hero's attempt to soothe her with his words.
It's been a year today and I'm finally sharing the story.
The morning of June 1, 2010, we were finishing up our last week of homeschooling before summer. I had walked into our bedroom to plug in my laptop. My babygirl came running into my room to tell me something funny the kitty had done.
Then, it happened.
She tripped over the rug in my room and fell, face first, onto the corner of the cedar chest. I didn't see the accident. I heard it. By the time I got to her, she was up, had her hand over her mouth and was stunned and panicky. It took me a split second glance at the injury to see that her mouth needed medical attention, immediately. After a quick call to our beloved pediatrician, we were on our way to the ER.
I never let her see the injury before stitches. I'm glad I didn't. Her beautiful mouth was a mess, her top lip suffering the worse with a gaping gash from top to bottom, inside/out. The plastic surgeon and his nurse admitted it was much worse than they expected.She had just lost her front two baby teeth and the permanent teeth hadn't broken the skin yet. That, in and of itself, was a blessing.
The Daddy joined us at the ER as quickly as possible. What a relief! But we were both brokenhearted. No parent likes to see their babies in pain and scared. Because of the intricate stitches needed on her mouth, a plastic surgeon in a nearby city kindly agreed to skip his lunch break to fix our girl.
The doctor had to give our sweet girl 5 painful shots in the face to get her mouth numb enough to stitch the lip. The first two shots didn't "take." He gave her no pre-shot calm down medicine nor did he put her to sleep. This is what we were dealing with when I started my story out. Our girl held nothing back...she screamed to the top of her lungs in pain from the 5 shots. I couldn't stay in the room. It was too much for this mama.
With the lip finally numb, the doctor was able to carefully make the intricate stitches needed to sew the jagged edges of her lip back together. I heard our girl, finally settling back down, start talking...I heard her, of all things, apologize. "I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I screamed. I just...I just wish this never happened. I just wish I could go home." My precious.
Here's what I wrote in my journal later:
"Seeing our beautiful baby girl in pain - with her split lip - the uncertainty of what it will look like once healed - her teeth and gums and other possible dental problems - her fear. She was terrified. We couldn't stop the fall. And she had to have the painful shots so the doctor could do the intricate stitches needed to put her lip back together. But, they were for her good. She couldn't see that. She only saw the pain of right then. Her daddy and I, as the two people who love her more than anybody, could not...did not stop the plastic surgeon.
As I crouched in the hall struggling to remain composed, I heard the Lord speaking to my heart, even then. He said, "This is how I feel when my children are hurting. I could stop some things - like you could stop the plastic surgeon and go home- but for your own good, I allow it to happen because I can see the big picture."
Babygirl's lip will heal beautifully with minimal scarring because we allowed the doctor to do what needed to be done. When we allow the Great Physician to tend to our wounds - even if painful - we WILL HEAL and our scars will be minimal.
When we are in pain, He is holding us, like my husband was clinging to our daughter that day. When we are screaming in agony, He is crying with us, like we did with our daughter. Father takes no delight in our pain. He wants to take it away - but we first have to trust His heart."

A year later, the babygirl, now 8, looks back on the accident not as a horrible experience, but sees how brave she was and how strong she is. She couldn't suck from a straw or drink normally from a cup for a couple of weeks, and she never complained. She couldn't smile for awhile, but her eyes did. Her doctor gave her permission to dance in her recital 5 days later. It amazed us that she even wanted to, with a still-painful lip 7 times bigger than normal and black thread for stitches all over her mouth. Her Daddy found a bandage to match her skin and covered the black stitches. I was a nervous wreck for her. She got on that stage and danced her heart out. She was so strong; we were so proud. She knows where the strength comes from...from the Lord. We believe this time will be a significant one to our girl for the rest of her life...not because of what happened...but because of Who showed up and what He spoke into her life that day and the weeks that followed as she patiently recovered.